. I pray and ask for forgiveness and talk how i hate my own sin and how i want to change, but in the end

. This is honestly more of a vent than anything, but I honestly can’t take this anymore. My life is honestly becoming unbearable, I no

. I wonder why God allowed certain things to happen to me. Don’t come saying it was for my good. After all, these things hinder

. For the past 6–8 years I’ve been hooked on end times prophecy, and so far nothing has happened. I’m starting to realize all of

. I don’t know what to do. I’ve been raised in a Christian household my entire life and never really paid it any mind. I

. Christian here, I’ve been struggling with my faith lately and doubting God’s existence. It’s been tough, long story short besides praying on it is

. If God is good why does disease happen? I’ve asked this question before, and I now understand that the disease is the result of

. So if every sin throught a momentary “hell” are forgiven, then what about this unforgivable sin? Who committed it does stay in hell forever

. I want to start by saying I apologize if the title triggered anyone who may be going through the same thing or did in

. I’ve never really felt complete without him. It all started when I came to America really, I tried so hard to fit that I