. I am asking this as someone who believes in Christ (and believe I have encountered him) but am having a hard time deciding whether

. My life is horrible and I’ve prayed and prayed at this point I’m starting to think that God loves the bad people while the

. I don’t want convincing or re-assuring at this moment. That is for me to figure out. I just need to vent because I feel

. I pray and ask for forgiveness and talk how i hate my own sin and how i want to change, but in the end

. This is honestly more of a vent than anything, but I honestly can’t take this anymore. My life is honestly becoming unbearable, I no

. I wonder why God allowed certain things to happen to me. Don’t come saying it was for my good. After all, these things hinder

. For the past 6–8 years I’ve been hooked on end times prophecy, and so far nothing has happened. I’m starting to realize all of

. I don’t know what to do. I’ve been raised in a Christian household my entire life and never really paid it any mind. I

. Christian here, I’ve been struggling with my faith lately and doubting God’s existence. It’s been tough, long story short besides praying on it is