. I’ve like always wondered bout this, so cults are usually seen as manipulative or based on lies, but when you think about it, a

. Hi, is it normal to be afraid of praying to god ? Because everything that I prayed for He always gave the opposite things.

. As I look at myself I see I have lived to please me first not God. I really only realized this about 4 years

. Hi, im 17 years old and i just start my Christian journey at the beginning of this year. (It was my new years resolution)

. Sometimes I have intrusive thoughts that, for example, if I anger someone, God will punish me back. If I get angry with someone, something

. I made a lot of mistakes, I made more mistakes than many, I think more than anyone who is still alive, but please ask

. I was baptised when i was younger but i didnt live the christian life like i should. I didnt go to church as much

. I don’t want convincing or re-assuring at this moment. That is for me to figure out. I just need to vent because I feel

. I feel I need to give up on Christianity. Been saved 10yrs but I just dont feel close or loving towards God. In fact

. everyday it’s endless distractions to not cut myself, relapsing, repenting, relapsing, trying to stay clean, all while hiding this from everyone. i’m tired, i